30 Day Journal Challenge - Day 18

Look at your list from question 17. Which of the accomplishments did you achieve primarily for someone else?

College. Honestly even for my masters I learned a few things but the vast majority I already knew. I like to learn new skills and a lot of the skills I had to learn I already did because I needed it for work. I did it to get the paper so I could be taken more seriously.

Now if I went BACK to college, I would love to get my doctorate in Economics - with a focus in behavioral economics and focus in on healthcare. That one, that would be for me.

30 Day Journal Challenge - Day 17

Make a list of some of the accomplishments you have achieved in your life

I know I have accomplished things but honestly I can’t list them. What are accomplishments and do they even really matter. Most of the list I would list of accomplishments many others would value but to me they are just a thing that happened. Like the list, none of those would be accomplishments, they would just be experiences. College was an experience, work promotions are an experience. If I get published that would be an experience. I don’t see those as anything worth calling out in any real manner.

Got one - I have perfected peanut butter brownies AND then translated it to using a box mix so I can give the recipe to others and it doesn’t intimidate them. That I am proud of.

30 Day Journal Challenge - Day 14

Have you ever been hurt by someone you loved, but later realized the person hadn’t intentionally done anything to hurt you?

Oh boy, yes. There is this guy…

I wonder how many responses to this question started with that phrase.

He still is wonderful. Smart, sweet, witty and kind. And I know he didn’t intentionally mean to pretty much trigger an existential crisis in who I am.

He was still in love with his ex. I am not her. He wanted me to be her. I tried. I failed. I ended it because the fact that this person who I had known for so long and had been one of the few people in my life I truly felt I could be myself with wanted me to be someone else, it broke me.

He never intended it. He was in pain too. Which makes it even worse because regardless of me I didn’t want him in pain. It was one of the reasons I tried.

What is funny is my flings with him were short. Much shorter than 3 other more real long term relationships. But yet they don’t haunt me in the same way.

30 Day Journal Challenge - Day 13

Would you be likely to survive alone in the wilderness?

It depends on how long and what kind of wilderness.

See, I don’t like camping. Nothing about it appeals to me. That said, I am surprisingly well read on very weird shit and have an apocalypse kit I keep in the hobby closet with things to help survive in case of <insert weird thing happening>. I also know how to hunt though it has been decades and same on butchering. I am also pretty crafty in pretty much all the definitions of that word.

So it truly depends on where when and what I have with me. Though this question has now made me think I need to add another item to the list - start a fire without a match or lighter.

30 Day Journal Challenge - Day 10

List 5 reasons that you like yourself.

Ugh. I hate questions like this.

  1. I am smart.

  2. I am creative.

  3. I am passionate.

  4. I am strategic.

  5. I can see things for what they are, not what I want them to be the majority of the time and in turn even when something doesn’t align with my moral framework, I can still empathize with it and willing to help. That said, I will still hold people to account for their shit, just understanding we don’t all start from the same place nor have the same experiences along with of course being human. My Kid and I just call it being an adult but given how many adults have to do acrobatics to justify others behavior in order to claim the people close to them are in the same moral framework as they view the world. There needs to be a word for it. Because it just boils down to the understanding of context and also being able to acknowledge that someone is deserving of compassion, kindness and love even if they don’t fit your moral code. That was wordy.